i lack an “aesthetic” (and why that kinda bothers me sometimes)

via Daily Prompt: Gray

Everyone in the world is different.

We have our own experiences and our own preferences. We each have our own lives. But in many ways, we are all connected. Somehow we fall into many categories and sub-categories our cultures and our societies have shaped over our existence.

What I’m particularly pointing out is the sub-categories of pop culture and social identity that tackle social standing and self-perception. Mainly this is about “aesthetics” and how I try so hard to have one. (Right here is an urban dictionary entry that in my opinion, defines that word pretty well.)

Nowadays, aesthetic is something that people just…have.

And from what I gather, an aesthetic is something people can describe themselves with. It’s something that can sum up their life’s work, their personal interests or their personality with just an image, a word or a feeling. It’s something that can even be attributed to specific people and be deemed as a featured influence that can affect thousands of others.  I often wonder whether an aesthetic is something that people actively choose or if it’s something that we naturally form as we grow older and less self-conscious. One thing I do know (which I am very certain about) is that I lack any form of

One thing I do know (which I am very certain about) is that I lack any form of cohesive “aestheticism” or “aesthetic-ness” or whatever it is you call it.

I’m not saying that I am not included in any tropes, cliches or groups that we like to label and stamp on ourselves. Because I know that is a bit impossible. And because I know that is simply isn’t true. I also know that doesn’t exempt me from the conventional meaning of aesthetics in philosophy. Just ’cause that is also not true. While I do realize that something as menial as this “issue” doesn’t disrupt the balance of the world -it does make me feel lost and wandering.

And that’s why I’m currently in what I like to call my “gray area”. Continue reading i lack an “aesthetic” (and why that kinda bothers me sometimes)